Well, feeling much better. Somebody must have been praying. I was able to stay in my bad mood for a couple of days and I didn't take it out on anyone else. I call that victory. I didn't make myself think happy thoughts and tried to stay away from guilt as much as possible and I tried not to take it out on my family. Isn't it terrible, when I get in a bad mood it is those I love the most that my nature wants to destroy. What is that about? Serious fallen nature stuff. Why can't it be that I take out a bad mood on complete strangers. Why those I love? I think, when I get in a bad mood I need to put less effort into getting happy (just let myself be sad or mad or depressed) and more effort into protecting those I love most. It worked out okay this last time, we'll see about next time.
Personal happenings, I passed the buck on Abigail going to brownie camp onto the nurse and she gave her the thumbs up except Abi wasn't allowed to do any athletics and no rolling down the hill (part of living in a smaller town, she knew all about what kids like to do at that particular camp). Abigails leg did look alot better on Friday as well. On Wednesday it was "angry" looking and made me worry. Big apology to Ingrid who came over on Thursday (my bad day) to experience the most boring hostess on record. I think she still wants to be my friend though, yeah. And, was someone praying about books or something? The broken down landrover came home, at last, after about 2 months, laden down with our "treasures". I am in book heaven. Where to put them all, what to read first. I didn't know which one to leaf through first. With our travels I have lost and had to give away alot of things I treasure. At first someone might think,"Oh, you are so unmaterialistic." Actually, at risk of not seeming perfect, I think I am more materialistic. In our family, I think, the more we give up the closer we get to "bizarre" treasures. Photos, of course, ratty old books, funky old german bikes and of course our army of old tents and sleeping bags (our mobile means of hosting) and quirky gifts that reveal the faces of precious friends. Things most people would look at as junk. Now I just need to find a place to put our eclectic collection of "treasures". Also, had a great afternoon/evening at the Bergen's house yesterday, a fun-filled time with kids, curry, a lamb called rocket and a motorbike.
Well, not feeling very positive today. My last couple of posts were a bit on the negative and I can't seem to find a more positive post in me. You see, I've got this thing about authenticity. So pray for my family that I don't take my bad mood out on them. Some things flooding my mind. My dad, we live so far away and his heart problems are gettting worse. I miss him and love him. My mom, "Worrys like a rocking chair, gives you something to do dont get ya-anywhere" and "Im gunna trade you in for a cockroach and step on it." I miss her and love her too. Abigail, the sore on her leg is getting worse, I don't think I can let her go to brownie camp this weekend, shes going to be so dissapointed. What right do I have to make suggestions to anyone on motherhood. I think I need to get some new books. The only ones I seem to be picking up are really old catholic ones that say things like, "bring on that near death painful experience so I can have that last rites with you Lord." I think I might go to Carrie's house and see if I can borrow a book from her late father-in-laws library of the christian classics. Any recommendations of the best of the best of christian classics? I wore sandals yesterday because it was June 1st. Dang, my feet were cold. Shall I kick the cat. Well, you know Squeeks might deserve it as she keeps sitting on my keyboard but no I will resist. I think I better stop now. I think I am going to regret blogging in this bad mood.
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